LMFAO

i am a confused child

2009-12-20T05:54:00.000-08:00

so life was smooth till one day i've deicded to be stupid and leave my phone at home, and my ex from overseas called me.

FUCK my life

now my feelings are all stired up.

go eat shit

2009-12-01T06:24:00.000-08:00

fuck god and his plans,i bet he don't even have any plans,or he starts planning after a few sips of tequilas. no wonder its all so FUCKED up.

FUCK YOU DADDY
FUCK YOU MUMMY
FUCK YOU JESUS and of course
FUCK YOU ALL

you dont even love me like before. i sound like a ten year old whining

anyways FUCK you niggers and good night.

NA

2009-11-25T07:13:00.000-08:00

i admit i am in pain.FOR THE FIRST TIME YEELIN HAS FEELINGS!!! my ex so posted his relationship status in facebook. FUCK MY LIFE AND FUCK FACEBOOK

go pop a wine freaks.

for this 100 days of pain i go thru i will get 1 million days of happiness.

jump!

2009-11-10T23:03:00.000-08:00

recently a friend of mine kill himself in a foreign country,i'd wish i joinied him.

i think i'd be happier down there.

i've been getting bad HEAD ACHE for not smoking. for the first time smoking cures something.

but i think aids is still the shit.to bad for those who have HIV.
its 3.07 pm and i am heading to sleep.

2009-11-01T07:07:00.000-08:00

--- On of their religion, you will go to Hell. Since there is more than one of these religions, and since people do not belong to more than one religion, we can project that all souls go to Hell.
With birth and death rates as they are, we can expect the number of souls in Hell to increase exponentially. Now, we look at the rate of change of the volume in Hell because Boyle's Law states that in order for the temperature and pressure in Hell to stay the same, the volume of Hell has to expand proportionately as souls are added.
This gives two possibilities:
1. If Hell is expanding at a slower rate than the rate at which souls enter Hell, then the temperature and pressure in Hell will increase until all Hell breaks loose.
2. If Hell is expanding at a rate faster than the increase of souls in Hell, then the temperature and pressure will drop until Hell freezes over.
So which do you think it is?

i am picking number 2!

still wondering

2009-10-20T06:21:00.000-07:00

ok so this month five people told me straight at my face that i am a sick person. i thought i was just crazy but sick dont sound so cool.

define sick for me anyway. i am a little confused.

nick!

2009-10-08T07:28:00.000-07:00

so how ironical...like i mentioned lonely lady with nine cats..i met someone who reminded me of my first love.nicholas.

for the first time i think my heart functioned after many years.

i am a wounded satellite

2009-10-02T20:34:00.000-07:00

ps: i am saying this out of the context of my friends.

everybody already has somebody.

everyone is getting married.

everyone is getting serious with their relationship.

i am still wandering like a lost sheep.

this is like an instant strike of paranoia that i will be the lonely lady with nine cats. even though i do get to experience meeting many men but in the end of the day i am the lonely one.

even after saying all of this, i would like to be single.

"she likes being good, and I like being happy...."

Edith Wharton

china..oh china

2009-10-02T05:45:00.000-07:00

turned two decade and got stranded in china.

didnt get to go for a close friends wedding and meet my best fren before she left for england.

i am starting to amaze my self even more everyday.

but i fell in love with me.

what a joke

2009-09-29T07:39:00.000-07:00

UNTIL I HAVE SOMETHING BETTER TO LOVE,I WILL STILL BE LOVING WHAT I LOVE.
tragic yet real.

i so want to murder you, but God asked me to do it later

2009-08-26T00:00:00.000-07:00

ahhhhhhhhhhhhh.i will shooot you!
oh sorry! be right back, gonna go stab the hell out of my mom now.

the great escape

2009-08-25T09:16:00.001-07:00

so my iguana planned an escape on me today....unfortunally i caught him while he was running for his life.
i wonder where he wanted to go. really! i might want to take him to dubai.

2009-08-24T06:47:00.000-07:00

i am in a bad mood.
i think my mom use to put live bears in my crib when i was a kid.

have a pleasant Monday and fuck you all!

very lethal

2009-08-21T09:40:00.000-07:00

so like i have a problem sleeping right?

i got some Atarax from the doc

and i drank some VSOP with it

lethal.

its 10am and i just got out of a roller coaster.

i dreamed of amsterdam, i want to go back there.

good morning guys and welcome to another day on earth.

hey God,where are you?

2009-08-20T00:13:00.000-07:00

one day God decided to put Israel next to Palestine and see what happen to both of the nation

then he kicks back on his couch and grab a pack of chips and beer and watch over them from heaven.

and he laughs.

at least he has a sense of humour,i like him.

happy friday's eve.

a million dollar question.

2009-08-19T09:25:00.000-07:00

if i had the precise answer to this i will be rich by today. yeah right.

so anyways the question here is what does it take to be really free and happy? have you ever thought of that? well i do! a lot!

To pursue the ultimated of hedonism.to be completely free of all being and even yourself and whatever you are holding back. some find it in the pleasure of playing sports, travelling the world and walking on the untouched ground, a new car, a second wife or even sex. to be really free is to not complain anymore. you will just somehow know when you are happy. your walk seems like a skip,your journey seems like its not going to end because you are just too happy, you purpose seem to be so clear though you do not know what it is. every song you hear is like inner healing and joy.

i battle with my spirit and the people around me to seek for the truth. I'd figured to leave all material things i had and walk this world based on my faith and the people who are willing to help me along the way. leave the me behind and be reborn again as a whole to seek the world and not get enclosed by the society and their expectation on us. sometimes when one seek that freedom, it gets so addictive that he does not want to give up on it and then they get caught up in the filth of this earth. like how sex addicts die of AIDS.i have seek human relationships to make me happy. just like seasons, human relationship comes and go.and then there goes the cycle all over again. then we get caught up in a so called routine that we hate. when relationship becomes a routine we get bored and sick of it.

i want to go to Alaska and hopefully die there.why die old and broke when you can die young and happy? i'd be rich! rich with happiness in my heart. i'd die while watching my favourite mountain and sky. i do not see myself spending my last moment on earth surrounded by prayers of people who are selfish into letting me go to heaven and paradise on my death bed. i do not dream of dying in a stream of my own blood as well. i want to go in peace and leave this earth with the best sight i can ever remember.most of our life's are according to a plan. you are given a plan on how to live your life since the day you were born. so if we always plan on living, when do we plan how to die?
oh foolish society. damn fools

i will be free soon, hence saying that i am spiritually materialized and i have a very big smile on my face.

good night.

wooooohooooooooooooooooooooooo

2009-08-19T02:19:00.000-07:00

i like:
good looking men
centrefolds
money
food
fast food
fast cars
faster cars
mansions
fun and
more fun.

i will give this all up and go to Alaska.i will live with wild boars,trees and icy mountains.i'll spread my yoga mat there and strike a pose just to see Alaska upside down and do the cha cha dance.. and laugh out hard at how you people work your ass of at your nine to five job.

i do not want to be poisoned by civilization.

ALASKA HERE I FUCKING COME!

FUCK THIS.

2009-03-18T08:49:00.000-07:00

ok i have been like viewing my own blog right and i just realised how crappy this is. i mean 90% of it there is not real input besides some suicidal note or constant whining.

so the purpose of this post is for me to speak about some real stuff about life in general.

some of it might turn out to be really random..so read ahead.

i dont understand why annoying girls still do not drop dead and die
weed is boring because everyone is doing it
weed seller are even more boring
the kampung malays should really consider wearing their helmet when riding a bike.SERIOUSLY
we should ban proton saga
nigger can never date a Chinese unless the chinese girl is really ugly or deformed
people in self denial are the worst criminal for themselves
kurt cobian should had not die cause he would take down fucking trance music
we should have more channels in astro
girls with high pitch laugh should go for voice surgery. if i was bill gates i WILL pay for their surgery like a scholarship or something.
girl on girl in clubs are overrated.they end up fucking without a condom.
we should ban people from dancing on the dancefloor because not many of us can afford medical check up for eye sore
ps: the micheal jackson is done in the 70's during the afro era. pls leave tht at home, dont bring in to the club
my dad counts his beer. ;)
i still dream of america, like a child who dream of disney land
white girls are ugly
i hate taking photos, but eversince facebook is out we all compete to upload photo's
we shud drink beer at night not day time. unless u are indian
some mix kid are cute. some are just badly formed. so if u plan u get married to a guy please think about how your kid will look like
at some point middle eastern people are fucked up and so are the malays. i can count with my fingers the good ones.
i hate rebels without a cause
whats up people braggin about their drinking lifestyle. we all drank! i think they meant water. opps!
i want a bigger plasma TV
cinema's should have a special place for ladies to avoid sexual harrasment
sexual harraser must go to hell
my room should have two air conds
my house shud have a pool
i should go to london soon as well.

dont puke

2009-02-20T00:52:00.000-08:00

even jesus can take a joke

wasted days u dont remember

2009-02-08T08:26:00.000-08:00

you woke up with heavy thruds on your head. u feel like vomitting. u feel like you are going through paranoia. every single movement brings paranoia to you. u can still taste alcohol in your throat. you feel confused and of coz dizzy as heck. and you have no idea what happened last night. you feel like there is someone inside your head hammering you skull. you cant barely breathe because you are still so high on yourself.

no no its not the end of the world

in fact u are just wasted

cheers peeps

i am bull-shitting my ass here

i hate this day

2009-02-05T07:36:00.000-08:00

let me remind you for those who have no clue at all of no memory at all that velantine's day is in nine days. thats right folks nine days. so am i exicted and all hype up for some romantic dinner ?

you can quote me.

ITS NO

i hate to walk to college and see guys holding flowers for their whosoever gf or crush and other guys at the corner urging them to pass the flowers.

i hate the sight of couples holding hands lookin so happy knowing that its valentine's day

i hate the fact that all the roads are jammed up cause everyone is out, while i need to go to some bar to escape my misery

i hate the fact that my friend keep braggin what she did for her boyfriend and what he did for her.

i hate the sight of red stuff even these words in red are killing my eyes. did i mention PINK?

i hate chocolate cause its fattening

i hate romantic dinner cause the candle on the table stinks!

i HATE VALENTINE's DAY

because i just do

happy valentines day

let me add on

2009-01-26T22:15:00.000-08:00

one more reason i wanna kill myself

i cant make it to AMEDIKA.

why did u die ?

2009-01-12T23:43:00.000-08:00

his name is kurt cobain and he should not die

wooookaaayyyyy

2009-01-12T23:16:00.000-08:00

2009 resolution

it is only the 13th day of 2009 i manage to figure it out.call me slow.fuck you right back at least i have one. here it goes:

leaving my home to chase my Hollywood dreams(RIGHT. just wanna leave my house period)
my college application to be accepted or i have to become an indon maid
growing an apple tree(have u ever tried doing it in Malaysia?) that's the whole point
growing another apple tree after my first one grow
go skiing
bungee jump cause 2008 i was a pussy
STOP PROCRASTINATING
get a score of 2000 for my SAT cause exam's a bitch
leave Taylors cause it suxs big time
strike a lottery and then shower in a pool of alcohol.(is that even possible? but i cant consider this as a resolution right because i cant control it)
talk less and do more and then talk even lesser and do more
date like a pro. love is a game. don't deny it
go for a gig
get my second tattoo
do something to impress myself and everyone else cause your opinion matters.

PEACE PEEPS

things that i hate

2008-12-11T01:47:00.000-08:00

there are many things that we like,

but if you were me you will list out a list of things that i hate

My mother. hate is a strong word but yes i do hate her. i know what you are thinking she your mom.she loves you..bla..bla..keep all those shitty advice to yourself. i know my mother better than anyone else and trust me she is the boogey man in my sleep.
china. they are lame and that's about it.
motorbikes on Malaysian roads.i wish the government would ban those motorbike's on the road. they are annoying and slow.especially when you are driving behind them
the bumiputra privilege.its crap and its against the human rights. you can read this up in the United Nation's.
president bush. for down turning the economy and causing people like us to suffer in the future for a job in the US because i was planning to migrate there.
the hot weather because i am not born to survive in a hot condition. God made a mistake in residential placement back in heaven
church at eight am
wet slippers. i get really annoyed when somebody wears my slippers and then wet it. the slimy feeling.
people smoking SKL in public.its ok to smoke it yourself but the secondhand smell of SKL is horrible. you just feel like slapping the person with the SKL.
Korean drama.its over reacting and they always turn out to have the same ending. girl meets boy boy meets girl.they cant be togather, they run off togather and live happily ever after,then the girl dies. TRAGIC YET LAME.
seafood. i hate seafood. sorry folks.
smart people who like to show off .they intimidate me in some way.
Perth because its so quiet.its like the whole place died
people with bad dressing. for example, puffed up blouse, kawaii skirts and long netted socks. disgusting.
miley cirus
bald man
Milo. i know its a Malaysian drink but still...its too gross for me
rainy days because i gotta wash my hair after that.
horoscopes cause its never true. why do people still read it i don't know.
studying or working.i want to live off my parents forever.

lust..lust..lust or is it LOVE.nah i dont think so

2008-12-07T00:39:00.000-08:00

LUST LIST(boys/men that you wanna eat)

PS:this is not meant to be sexual or something.but still for those of you who have sexual syndrome go get some help

BRANDON BOYD

before i start please give God a five seconds of silence moment to thank him for BRANDON BOYD.He is tall,dark and handsome. and he is EMO. he comes from a kick ass band called incubus.and he produces the best songs and lyrics in the entire planet.he looks like a Greek god and America should make him their president.

ROBERT PATTIONSON

this boy defines BILF(boys i love to fuck). his awesome mysterious eyes and brown hair is beautiful. well practically he is not HOT but he is beautiful.like an art. did i mention his appearance in Twilight where he is a vampire but i don't care.totally kill the norms of ugly vampire with disgusting fangs. you can eat me Robert!!!!! note he was also Cedric in Harry Potter but he look a bit nerdy in there but who cares the makeover in twilight is bravo.

JARED LETO

this is the only man who looks good in a skinny jeans. unlike some rempit in malaysia who are not even close to looking like him he pulls his style perfectly.urgh..why am i even comparing him with malaysian rempit's.he is the God of impossible fashion.listen up people Jared Leto is the only person in this planet who can pull of a black skinny jeans, sailor jackets, and gloves.and not look like some retarded emo.

ARJUN RAMPAL

oh my exotic asian.mind you he is pakistani. but he looks DAMN!! i would have died when i see him. unfortunally he is married but who cares? he is one hot ass DILF(daddy's i love to fuck)

MILO VENTIMIGLIA

gorgeous..gorgeous..he looks perfect even when he is injured in the movie HERO and he saves the world. who dosent love him? he is definately better than superman.-__-.

*by the way superman's girlfriend is really stupid.she does not recognize him as a office boy in her office just because he is not in his suit and he is wearing a spec.even my grandma would know. its too corny*

uh..

before i lost touch with reality i will stop here

stay with me folks as i will keep the updates coming soon cause we will never get enough of them

four men/boys aint enough yet.

All i want for Christmas is....

2008-12-04T20:00:00.000-08:00

Its the time of the year again, CHRISTMAS!!! its the only time of the year that you can be selfish and wish for the possible and of course the IMPOSSIBLE.

so yeah...

Dear Santa,

This is what i want for Christmas this year.

1) A Mazda RX-8 (RED in color,pimped with disco balls at the back seat with automatic cocktail machine maker)

2) wed Brandon Boyd

3) a good uni to study in the US by next year. in states like NY,LA, or San Francisco

4) a bank with lots of cash so that i can buy the whole Kate moss Christmas collection from topshop.

5) meet the crews of little Britain and go for one of Russell peters live show in Montreal

6) go for a holiday in the Maldives

8) fast forward time to the time where Esther is back and sze's exam is over so that we can go crazy together

9) a truck of carbonara

10) a coffee shop by the name mama kopitiam cause everyone is naming their kopitiam papa kopitiam.just kidding. i want to own a coffee shop in Maldives named..urm..i havent figured it out yet but yes i want to be like those tauke to sit it the kopitiam and chill all day long smoking cigars or sisha's

11) a jug of beer with my crews (for now its just one)

12) a big ass bungalow so that i can have house party all everynight

13) a PHD in medicine cause the global economy is so bad and the health industry is at its peak.

14) a white skinny jeans from GUESS

15) four entourage.that includes a hairdresser, a driver for my mazda, someone to do my assignment and carry my bag and books and a PR practitioner to deal with my mother during her PMS days

16) a new hair like Victoria beckham's ,pixie hair cut. cause i wanna look like a rocker wannabe

17) a new name cause recently i saw a book call baby names and there so many awesome baby names but unfortunally my mom named me yeelin. some people pronounced it as elaine, eileen, ee ling,ee lin, li lin,li yin....-__- stupid people. i want a name like Dolalita Van Mia daughter of Lord Earnet. sounds cool right? this is just an example. but people will go like where are you from? england? netherland? or RUSSIA

i love SANTA!

how to people watch

2008-06-18T01:20:00.000-07:00

well i came up with this few months back.i have a certain passion for people watching and upon my fascination i want to write an article about it so that the others can enjoy it as much as i do.

HOW TO PEOPLE WATCH

Go to a coffee shop or your favourite hang out spot where its crowded.eg Starbucks, Dome
provide a cash of minimum RM 20 because the cheapest coffee in Starbucks may be RM13.13 for a caramel machiatto..well you do the math.just make sure you don't go people watching empty pocket!
try to go out in a group of less than three because a group of more than three will make to much noise and you will end up talking to each other instead. better still go alone!
then its the sitting position. after you have finally settle down with your drink and everything ,u need a proper sitting position. try not to sit too straight and look around and stare wildly at people. its scary. but instead try slouching against your chair and look more relaxed and pretend that you are looking far from the horizon but u are actually people watching
this is very IMPORTANT. please note there is a very big difference between watching and staring. don't be bius look at everyone!!!
at times when you people watch,some instant paranoia people will quickly stare at you give you the "why are you looking at me ?" glare. you might need an instant solution to fix this situation. what you can do is pretend to sip your drink or coffee. that's the whole point of getting a drink!
for those who decided to people watch in group. all group members are to refrain themselves from looking at the same person. you don't want unwanted attention from others.REMEMBER people watching is a sneaky job. it requires you to be as invincible as possible.
your attire is important as well. please do not wear obscene or striking attire because instead of people watching you will be watched by people
last but not least choose the spot where you can notice everyone but no body notices you. eg staircase.corner of main entrance

have fun people watching and good luck! its an incredible hobby.