still wondering

ok so this month five people told me straight at my face that i am a sick person. i thought i was just crazy but sick dont sound so cool.

define sick for me anyway. i am a little confused.

nick!

so how ironical...like i mentioned lonely lady with nine cats..i met someone who reminded me of my first love.nicholas.


for the first time i think my heart functioned after many years.

i am a wounded satellite

ps: i am saying this out of the context of my friends.

everybody already has somebody.

everyone is getting married.

everyone is getting serious with their relationship.

i am still wandering like a lost sheep.

this is like an instant strike of paranoia that i will be the lonely lady with nine cats. even though i do get to experience meeting many men but in the end of the day i am the lonely one.

even after saying all of this, i would like to be single.

"she likes being good, and I like being happy...."

Edith Wharton

china..oh china

turned two decade and got stranded in china.

didnt get to go for a close friends wedding and meet my best fren before she left for england.

i am starting to amaze my self even more everyday.

but i fell in love with me.